Sunday, January 25, 2009

Down but not out

Over the last 3 weeks I’ve been busy dealing with my financial ditch and haven’t had much time, or the heart really, to post anything. (I’ve mostly kept up with my reader though and there’s been SO much great writing – sorry for not commenting.)

In a nutshell, shortly I’ll be filing for bankruptcy and leaving my home. Temporarily, until I can sort out a place of my own, I’ll be staying half the week with my Boo and the other half in X’s spare room. I won’t go in to the reasons behind these arrangements right now – another time.

Despite my bravado, the reality of my situation floored me this past week. On the upside, I'm bouncing back and starting to feel (again) that actually, it's not the end of the world but a chance to start over and embrace a new chapter in my life. Everyone around me has given me so much love and support and I'm remembering to count my privileges and blessings.

Once the shit settles, I'll have much more time for blogging, so expect to hear lots from me in the future!

I'm down but not out.


PS I just looked up QR in the dictionary and it says "feisty, unbeatable femme" - that's me!!

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Just for the record

Just for the record and in no particular order my goals for 2009 are:

  1. Be better at keeping in touch with friends

  1. See my sisters more often

  1. Sort out my finances - Well, that sounds easy! Not! I haven’t blogged about my financial ditch in a while, so just to update: the ditch has deepened and following the meeting I have on 21st Jan I’ll know whether I’ll be filing for bankruptcy or not. Nuff said.

  1. Move - Very closely connected to No.3 as you can imagine! I’m paying an extortionate amount of rent at the moment and need to economise. (My request for a rent reduction was very politely declined.) I’m feeling quite stressed about moving again because I’ve already moved twice in the last year and a half.

  1. Stop smoking - I’ve been listening to all the signs telling me it’s time to quit. I have an appointment at the doctors on Monday 12th Jan. I have 5 packs of my lovely ciggies left. And, I’m TOTALLY interested in electronic fags.

  1. Improve fitness and lose 10lbs

  1. Send that letter to my dad

  1. Talk with my family about doing something for my mum’s grave

  1. Get a mouth guard - How attractive! Would it surprise you to know that I grind my teeth in my sleep? Thought not.

  1. Continue to be positive and thankful for my blessings & privileges. 2009 IS going to be a good year

Monday, January 05, 2009

Quality Street anyone?

The fact that all that remains of a large tin of Quality Street is a small pile of toffees on my kitchen table is a sure sign that Christmas has been and gone and a New Year has arrived.

First of all, thanks to my sister for the Quality Street. Secondly, due to my offending organ getting a reprieve, I've had a mighty fine couple of weeks. Highlights included a really lovely family get together at my place and a wonderful Christmas day complete with a totally scrummy lunch cooked by my totally scrummy girlfriend.

I received lots of lovely pressies including, get this (!), a bicycle from said girlfriend!! Of course, I'll have to work on getting some appropriate cycling outfits together a la "does my bum look big in this?"

This last New Years Eve was the most amazing yet:

In the early evening I went to see X. What can I say? We had a really good chat and talked about our relationship and how it's moving on. It felt hugely liberating for me to tell him how happy I am and to hear him say that he is happy too. Of course, that happiness is framed in the knowledge that wel'l always be connected. He's dating and I'm so glad.

Then, my Boo took me for a nice romantic supper at one of our favourite restaurants. She looked SO handsome in her black velvet dinner jacket and smart shirt & trousers. At dinner she pulled out a paper puzzle that she'd made earlier and during the meal she'd pull it out and ask me to choose a number to reveal one of 12 surprises to come later that night. We were back home before 10. Oh boy! Ahem. Ive said it before and Ill say it again I'M A VERY LUCKY WOMAN. Oh Boo, you make me weak at the knees!

I've so much to be thankful for. I can't remember feeling this positive about a coming year. I think 2009 is going to be great.

A Very Happy New Year to you all.

With love