Friday, October 31, 2008

Chemical assistance

Life takes it’s toll doesn’t it? I’ve been feeling depressed lately and have decided to get some short term chemical assistance from my GP. All I need is to feel normal enough over the next few months to deal with finishing 3 work projects, finding a solution to my financial situation (bankruptcy or certainly something like it), Christmas, having my gall bladder removed just before Christmas and then moving (again) in the new year. That’s to say nothing of dealing with the bereavement of my long term relationship (THE post that I haven’t written yet). But, it’s all good. I’m alive and I think I’d worry if I wasn’t feeling the way I am. Thank goodness for my girlfriend, friends and family. And reduced fat chocolate chip cookies.


Oh and plus, I’ve been told that something like Prozac could result in me losing a few pounds AND making orgasms either easier or harder!! That’s a winner right?! Like I’ve said before – bring it on!!

12 comments:

femmeismygender said...

BIG big hugs honey - we are always here for you xxxxxxx

greg said...

When I was going through a serious rough patch a couple of years ago, I don't think that I could have handled day to day life w/o the chemical help I had (lexapro for severe anxiety). I had resisted it for a long time but I wasn't able to function mormally and so I gave in. It helped in a big way and as soon as life calmed a bit and I felt strong enough to face the world w/o help, I decreased the dosage and then w/in a couple of months I was able to stop completely. I am grateful for the relief it gave me when I so needed it.

You have a hard few months coming and you know what your body needs. Hugs to you.

Queers United said...

prozac was originally marketed as a weight loss supplement. you will lose weight but its a temporary side effect in the first few months

Butch Boo said...

Baby....you have been through so much, you're incredibly strong, courageous and resiliant.

You've been climbing an incredibly high mountaina for some time now and to don some climbing boots for a while to help you ascend more easily won't hurt.

I'm there with some Kendall mint cake!!

Love

BB

X

QueerRose said...
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~wicked~ said...

my dearest QRx...sweetheart, as low in the hole as i am myself these days, for you i'll gather up as many positive thoughts and feelings as i can and send you good vibes so you can get through these tough times a s a p!

thinking about you.
mucho hugs to ya girl!

QueerRose said...

Dear f.i.m.g I know that you are and it makes a world of difference to me. Always here for you too x

Dear Greg - I've resisted just like you did but now is the time to bite the bullet as they say! And you're right sometimes you just have to listen to your body. Thanks very much for sharing your experience. I'm glad that things worked out for you. Sending you hugs back x

Dear Queers United - yeah you're right. I'm just trying to see the brighter side of things and as someone whose ideal body is that magical half a stone away, well.... Nice to see you here. Love your blog x

Dear BB, the climbing boots are on! But can I pass on the Kendal Mint Cake - perhaps some marzipan instead?! Thanks for saying such nice things and most importantly, for being there for me. x

Wicked - I don't know what to say. Such a kind message. Thank you and thinking about you too. Hugs x

Receiving such kind messages over the ether from people I've never met (Greg and Wicked) reminds me of the Chris Abani talk on humanity:
How to see your own humanity you need to see humanity reflected back at you
And how you can steel your heart against anything but how an act of kindness from a stranger can unstitch you. Much love QRx

~wicked~ said...

marzipan???? o m g...i grew up on that yummy stuff! and being kind to great people, albeit strangers, is not a hard task, luv

:-)

Honey said...

I'm so sorry you're having a hard time! I hope you feel better soon and that the stress is soon behind you.

QueerRose said...

Dear wicked and honey - thank you very much. The good news is that both the marzipan and Prozac are on their way! QRx

thePATHeyeCHOOSE said...

I have been reading your blogs and enjoying them immensely...sharing some common issues right now...

and it's amazing how sometimes a complete stranger can give you the best advice...

had a bit of a meltdown myself the other day...on the subway of all things and this older lady comes up to me and just put her hand on my shoulder....it meant a lot cause I really do not show my emotions to people I don't know and certainly not to a crowd of freaked out subway goers (lol)...but it did something for my spirit...

and I am glad that you are getting through your challenges right now and will light a candle for you as I do all those special persons I think of in the day...

QueerRose said...

Dear thepatheyechoose, very sorry that you're going through bad time, thank you for thinking of me. Experiencing kindness from strangers is incredibly uplifting isn't it? And it's reassuring to know that as much as there's a lot of hate in the world (like millions of people voting against equality in the States), there's a lot of good stuff too. So there's hope right? QRx